At Knit's End: Meditations for Women Who Knit Too Much
“Sometimes, people come up to me when I am knitting and they say things like, "Oh, I wish I could knit, but I'm just not the kind of person who can sit and waste time like that." How can knitting be wasting time? First, I never just knit; I knit and think, knit and listen, knit and watch. Second, you aren't wasting time if you get a useful or beautiful object at the end of it.I will remember that not everyone understands. I will resist the urge to ask others what they do when they watch TV.”
At Knit's End: Meditations for Women Who Knit Too Much
Having new babies in the family has given me lots of opportunities to knit some little sweaters and hats and crochet some blankets. I love to knit; it’s one of the things I do to relax. However, my latest little creation became a study in patience.
I have found a really neat yarn. The creator of this yarn has dyed it in such a way that when knit well, faithfully following a pattern, and keeping the stitching even, this yarn will create a lovely pattern without any effort. I love it, it really looks pretty, and to be honest impressive, despite the fact that it’s just the way it was planned and dyed that makes the outcome so wonderful.
I started a little sweater for my granddaughter Lucy about a week ago using this special yarn. It was the first time I used this yarn on a project bigger than a hat, and I was pretty excited to see how it would work out. The back of the sweater went perfectly, I checked the pattern I was working from faithfully and I paid close attention to what I was supposed to be doing. Next I began the sleeves and front of the sweater. I was feeling pretty comfortable with the directions, enough so I decided to watch some television and knit at the same time. Sleeve one and side one went perfectly!!!! I loved it, and now I was about three-fourths of the way done, coming down the homestretch. Sadly, I began to check the directions less frequently and watch the television a bit more, I was distracted. Before I knew it, I had bound off the wrong side of the sleeve! To say I was unhappy would be an understatement.
Slowly I backtracked through the error. I picked up stitches and gently slid them back on the needle. So much work had already gone into the sweater but even so, I felt like throwing the whole thing away. It was a lot of work trying to get the stitches back on in the right order and turned the correct direction, to be honest I did my best, but the sweater now had a big mistake, stitches that didn't lay flat anymore, right on the front. I decided to continue knitting and deal with the area that had the flaw later. I was very careful to keep my mind and focus on the task at hand, and to not give up. Finally, I came to the last row, bound the stitches off, sewed the seams together and looked at the little sweater now lying in front of me. No matter where I looked, my eyes continued to be drawn to the big flaw on the right, front panel of the sweater. Except for that one flaw, the sweater was practically perfect. I was disappointed and frustrated.
As I sat there staring at the flaw on the sweater front, it occurred to me that if I could cover that area with something cute, or pretty, the sweater would look great and all the work that had gone in to it would not be wasted. I pulled out my crochet hook, whipped up a floppy flower with some of the remaining yarn, and used a big, color coordinated button for the flower center. Voila, the flaw was corrected, it was gone, and the flower gave the sweater a whimsical, fun kind of look. I liked it!!!
Later, as I looked at Lucy modeling her new threads, I thought about how that sweater is kind of like my life. The creator of my life has made me in such a way that if I keep focused on his pattern and directions, my life will go smoother, and the finished product will be pleasing and useful. But, there are times, like when knitting the sweater, I haven’t stayed focused, haven’t exercised my faith, and sadly, it’s left some glaring flaws and not so pleasing areas on my life canvas. But as I looked at Lucy, smiling and bouncing around with that big bloom on her sweater, I realized, just like me and my flawed sweater, the Lord, hasn't give up on me, or discarded me, and just like I covered those crooked, bumpy stitches with a big, floppy, cute flower, He has covered my flaws with beautiful blooms of compassion, forgiveness, grace, mercy and love.
I am so happy I didn't have to pull that sweater apart, but even more grateful for the Lord who keeps me from unraveling every day. Hoping the finished product of my life will one day bless the one who created and continues to guide it, and so thankful He has an endless supply of beautiful blooms.
"The daffodil is our doorside queen, She pushes upward the sword already, To spot with sunshine the early green."
~ William Cullen Bryant
A week ago it snowed. Not unusual, it snows in Maryland almost every winter, except this time it wasn’t winter, spring had sprung. The daffodils were out in full bloom, the promise of warmer weather was in the air, and then a cold front hit the DC area. Now, there were daffodils blooming on snow covered hills. Daffodils are hardy flowers, despite chilly temperatures, when the snow melted and the mercury rose again, the beautiful, golden flowers continued surviving and thriving.
Since the first of the year I have lived life at a furious pace. Baby Lucy arrived in January, our fifth granddaughter and first blessing of the New Year. Once home, nights and days ran together and even though I was one tired Grammie, I wouldn’t trade those special middle of the night snuggles for anything. Three weeks later, our sixth granddaughter, little Livie arrived and I was off to join in the fun at the Willett household, so many precious moments with Aubree and Livie, their mom and dad and Mimi who had also come from Florida to help. I’d be lying if I didn’t say, after almost a month of helping with new babies I was exhausted, but life continued at a furious pace.
Bob and I both turned a year older in January, a loved one became ill and needed hospitalization, our oldest granddaughter broke her arm ice skating, family birthdays were celebrated, we attended our grandchildren’s school events, I made a guest author appearance, hosted my book club, continued to help with the little ones, grieved the sudden death of a dear friend, and most recently had family here for Easter dinner, there were 28 at the table that day. In other words, life raced on.
I enjoyed that snowy spring day; it gave me time to slow down, sip some tea, think, reflect and look at daffodils blooming in the snow. Those hardy daffodils stood tall and spotted the landscape with their surprising yellow faces, defying the late cold snow to bring them down. As I watched the snow falling, I felt like one of those sunny blooms. Despite the demands (and blessings,) of the last few months I was still standing, still enjoying the special moments and soldiering through the difficult times. Thanks to the Lord, through the demands of the previous weeks, I found out I was pretty hardy too.
Things seem to be settling into a more normal routine finally. I think I’m even starting to catch up on my rest. Hoping soon to welcome warmer temps and cherry blossoms, but for now the daffodils (and me) are still standing strong.
I'm a wife, mother and grammie who loves time with family and friends. I love learning new things, visiting new places, and making each day count, because moments matter and I don't want to waste mine.
© Bobbie Kogok 2014